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Divya Raj (she/her/hers), Low Entropy Volunteer Writer

 

What do you think happens on a typical day for someone who overthinks? Well, it’s easy to guess. 

Do you consider yourself an overthinker like myself? If you do then you will definitely relate to what I am trying to convey through my writing. 

It is frustrating when you cannot live fully in the present; either you are stuck somewhere in the past  or are constantly worried about future events. I have been an overthinker since I was a child and would describe myself as a sensitive and emotional person. I remember everything about any incident that had happened years ago; I remember every word relayed in a conversation up to three or four years  ago! You may consider me as some prodigy, haha! 

However, this robust memory is a blessing and a curse. It’s good to remember extraordinary events and amazing conversations. Still, when you cannot forget some mishappenings or conversations that showcase your deepest fears, it kills you on the inside. Sometimes, I spend hours or days thinking  about things that really do not matter and are of no importance though my mind keeps me stuck in this vicious cycle of aggressive thinking. 

I find myself constantly thinking about my future; if not, I will be traveling back in time to past experiences. My heartbeat fastens, it feels like endless thoughts are running in my  mind, and I can’t think straight. I have done extensive online research on ways to cure overthinking, have read hundreds of articles, watched multiple videos, tried meditation, and even tried writing my thoughts out, but nothing has helped me. 

It’s funny when you think that you have the power to control anything in your life but you cannot even handle your own thoughts. Right now, sitting in my bedroom, staring out of my window, I am still wondering about what could happen with my life in the future and simultaneously am writing my heart out. See, multitasking at its best! 

I have spoken to many people about this topic and they have always suggested that I simply stop overthinking. Whenever they say this to me, I will say, “Thanks for the information; I think I should write this down somewhere.” I know life is unpredictable; anything can happen; whatever you plan will either work out or not. 

 

But even after knowing this, why do I still overthink? It is something that I have been asking  myself for ages! Whatever I’ve read and heard from people, they have always considered overthinking to be negative, and one thing that I have witnessed is that if you describe anything in this way, it will impact your life negatively as well. I’ve realized from my experiences that it takes courage to get out of something negative but a lot more courage to get into something positive and accept it as a part of your life. 

Today, I am deciding to change my perception on overthinking! I no longer consider it to be a negative thing. Instead, I would consider it a good thing that propels me to do better. Sometimes if you overthink a situation, it can save you from the potentially negative aftermath because you will have already prepared yourself for the worst scenario. It is necessary to sit with yourself and understand  what is happening inside of you. I truly believe that sometimes the answers to questions you are looking for on the outside, you will find inside of yourself. Make yourself a priority; it’s okay if you cannot sort things out. It’s totally fine but try to understand your thoughts and your emotions. Gradually, things will  improve for your own good. 

 

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Divya Raj is a young and innovative marketing specialist with experience in Digital marketing, SEO-Optimised Content Writing, and UI/UX design. In her leisure time, she loves to share her perception of this beautiful world through her writings.